I Miss You; I Really Do.

i was just wondering. am i important to you at all not?
and who am i to you?
this two question have been rounding around my mind since yesterday.
i've seen wad i shouldnt have seen.
i've heard wad i shouldnt have heard.
i really wanna know the answer to my question.

am i your only one? or there is still others?
am just a toy or your lover?
who can i turn to to get my answers?
one hour ago, i miss you.
but the next half & hour, i dunno how should i feel towards you.
you make me feel that you love me.
but the things i see & hear from others makes me suspect your love, care & concern.
i know that i let you down before.
but e things you said makes me feel that its time to continue my life with you by my side.

xoxo & i plan to go penesular plaza to visit fat joe to do some touch up & add on
after that to bishan j8 to watch "the hulk" before he enter NS.
however the planwas spoiled by xoxo. "hmps"
we work up at 6 plus 7 for his family dinner. both of us look so sterm lahh.
his sister's cooking was dame nice. far nicer den my maids cookin.
after dinner we plane to watch "the hulk" at 9.00pm
once we were on the bike off to green, sotong 103 called and ask us to meet him at kovan.
well...no choice cause weilun they all were at the arcade too.
so change timing to 9.30pm.
BUT...we missed the timing again and plan cancelled!
spent time at arcade & went off to our last rounding. SO SAD!
coz weilun & xoxo going to NS today & ahtong 3 days after today. =C
i'll miss you guys.
<--- our MR MEH MEH! say hello...i mean meh meh

we went to chong pang to eat.
baby,ahtong & weilun was making a joke out of beni's gf. "toilyoryor"
after that off to yishun dam to slack =D
we were enjoying our time there but was disturbed by "toilyoryor" lah
nb next time bring plastic bag out lah pee pee pee who ask you drink so much water.
all of us have to leave just because she needs to pee. bloody hell.
rounding was fun.how i wish the sky was still dark.

went back xoxo house to sleep.
woke up by his sisters & mother.
he's going to be late for NS book-in if he dun get up.
the whole family was like rushing.
took cab home when his cousin came o fetch him.
're missed. so is weilun.

my plans from to day to 27 will be like...
camp at home. or meet up with weijian && rebecca sometimes lo.
but i wan my answer to my question before i really commite into tis relationship.

well. life is so boring after 8 am today because xoxo book in ar
& den 10am weilun's turn to book in
& den 3 more days ahtong's turn to book in
wtf. life sucks man.