♥ Cause Love Isnt Easy To Find ♥: missed

dearest this is the first show she watch with you
eventhough both of you watch it at your house
it doesnt matter.
all it matters is 're with her.
but it seems that you wont be with her much longer ya.
its been a few days since both of you really spent time together.
she really miss you
life without you was bored.
sometime, she really hope that you have never entered her life.
she dont wish to miss you every single second of her life.
she dont wish to think about you every single second of her day
but what can she do?
its no one fault except hers.
for falling head over heals over you.

"she once thought you were the right guy for her.
the guy that can really make her listen to wadever you say without fighting back.
but 're doing things that make her feel both of you are not right at all.
she dont want to think about it.
she just wants you to be hers
at least let her have some thinking that you still care
she dont wanna be alone again.
she dont want to search all over again for her love
cause she found you."

everything have memories.
you brought her laughter.
you brought her tears.
all she could do was to shed all the tears away
and tell herself that you still love her.
she hates to lie to herself
but yet she have to.
she dont wanna face the reality.
nope. she dont.
she dont want to be hurt by you.
she still wants to be in her dream that was never hers.

she knows you were always busy doing your things.
thats why she dont wanna irritated you with her calls or msg.
but boy...
she's worried for you.
every time your number shows in her phone,
she make sure she pick it up ASAP.
but everytime most of the stuff you told her was.
" help me with this."
"help me with that"
she sense no care & concern at all.
but it doesnt matter much at all.
at least you call her and she knoes where you are.